A new chapter has emerged from my already existing novel. It's one of those novels that continues to be written, and it will never stop being written. I will always be progressing and moving forward and reaching for new peaks. When I get tired of old ones, I move on to new ones. I can be whomever I want to be, and that's what I love about this new chapter. I'm turning over a new leaf, and I'm moving to being the person that I want to be.
You may want to ask me who it is that I want to be. And I'd tell you that you have a very valid question. I'm not sure who it is that I really want to be. I know that right now at this very moment I want to be happy. I want to live each moment as if it were the most important moment of my life. I want to stress only about the things that are truly important. I want to be faithful, kind, and true to those that I love. I want to feel important, and I want to create moments with my family. I want to be the person that I want to be and not feel guilty about my mistakes. I want to live. More than anything in the world I just want to live my life.
Living to me means more than going through the motions. It means that I will count each breath as a blessing from God. I will keep myself healthy so that I can live my life longer and to the fullest. I will relish in the moments that are breathtaking: rain, sweet kisses, precious moments with family and friends. I will appreciate the time I get to spend studying and reading at night, which is my favorite time of the day. And I'm going to enjoy my life. I'm not going to be perfect, but I'm going to feel good about who I am and what I'm doing. Because from now on I'm going to live.
Maybe I'll use this blog to relive really precious moments that I feel impact who I am. Or maybe I'll post once and won't do it again. Either way, this post for this blog at this moment signals a change of heart for me. It signals a release from a different person who was a little more afraid to be herself. And now I'm going to do a little better. I'm going to stand a little taller and reach a little further because I can. Today signals a change. I can feel it, and I'm drowning myself in the purity that can come through true change. So here I go to LIVE another day. And that's what's most important.
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