The semester will end... I just have to keep telling myself that sometimes ;) You know, I wish I could push a magical "fix my mood" button whenever I'm in a bad mood. And it would be nice if my self talk actually worked. Like when I tell myself that hard things are for the best, it would be nice to really believe that. Or when I set a goal. Wouldn't it be nice to actually achieve one of those goals for a change? What does that even feel like? I feel so stuck right now, and I don't know how to fix it. I don't know how to fix me. I try to be better, and I feel like I end up taking steps backwards. "Fix. It. Fix it!"
Things are going to be all right. And one day I'll have things figured out. Until then, I just have to pretend like I have it all figured out, and I have to keep being independent and self motivated. Help.
Sometimes I wish that it wasn't such a bad thing to feel. I think I'm just in this weird stage of my life where I'm trying to figure things out. I'm trying to decide where I really stand and how I really view the world around me. Things just don't seem as black and white as they used to be. It's just so strange to decide how I feel about certain things. And it's weird to still feel like I'm trying to find my place in the world. Things are going to be super. I can feel it.
*Oh and feel free to comment on anything you'd like, Katie. haha You're the only one that reads it anyways, and I always love to hear your feedback.
You just gave me the green light ;)
ReplyDelete"Fake it 'til you make it."
I think that should be our mantra for this stage of our lives. Especially with only a few weeks left of school. Everything is crazy hard and stressful. But it will end. It will. Then it will be summer and things will calm down for a while. And if not, at least we'll all be back home to handle it together. Meanwhile, I know you can do this. I think you do so well. And I'm here if you need me. Always.