That's what counts

So I thought I'd take advantage of a night that I'm feeling really pretty awesome. Not that all my other nights suck or anything, but tonight has just been better than a lot of other days this week. I've been a little bored lately, and I've been missing some direction; however, today just felt better. Church was really frustrating. I've been trying to get this musical fireside ready for next week, and sometimes people aren't willing to help. It's just so frustrating when people aren't willing to put forth any effort. But you know, maybe I don't know the whole story. Maybe some people just really can't take on even one more thing. I have a really hard time saying no, but not everyone is that way.

This leads to my next thought. I've been thinking a lot today about how we're sort of all in this together. One of our purposes on this earth is to help and lift other people. Helping other people is one of our main purposes while we're here, and I just think that's so cool. We all have this end goal in sight, and we can help other people reach that ultimate goal. None of us are perfect, but I like to think that most of us are trying our best. Most people are trying to live life the best that they can. It would help me a lot if I could remember that.

Things are going really well, and I'm so happy with my life. I have so many blessings and opportunities, and I love being me. I'm not perfect, but I'm trying. And that's what counts.

I don't always have it together.

I am discouraged.

I feel so lonely.

A piece of my heart is gone, and I can't get it back.

Pain. Alone.

I still feel hope, and that's comforting. I do know that things are going to turn out the way they should. And I do know that I'm not ever really alone. But tonight...

I need my best friend, and he's gone.

I want to smile... But more than that, I want to cry. I want to cry the pain away.

I don't have to have it together all the time.

Some of the time would be nice...

I want to guard my heart. And at the same time, I want to let people in.

It's worth it; it's hard.